This is a emo journal. I know I said I promised no more, but I literally feel like losing my fucking mind.

Please, don't try to make me feel better by telling me your problems, because when people do that, I feel like complete shit.

I haven't been able to stop crying for the past week at least.

Because I have a father who likes to tell his friends his daughter's a lesbian, (im not bi anymore. if you have a problem with it, i don't give a fuck/) and let all of them pick on me and bitch about how god doesn't love me because i wont be able to have babies and shit.

I don't even know what happened. My head suddenly felt so pressurized, and I had to run into my room, and fucking made the most unnatural sound I have ever heard myself make.

God damn, I don't even have friends enymore... I can't even tell anymore... No one ever fucking talks to me anymore. I swear, if this goes on, I'm about to use the fucking wannabe emo thing 'I've learned from my mistakes, you can't trust anyone. Especially the ones you trust most." I trusted my father ever since I learned he was my dad and shit, then he joined his dumb as fuck pirate band, and I can't trust him with aNY information any more.

Then... I don't even want to talk about it... I feel like such a bitch... While I was in a relationship, I was a complete attention whore, trying to get them to talk to me nonstop, and the moment they stopped talking, I'd be a bitch and type a whole fucking emo letter to them.

damn... if i make typos, I'm sorry... I'm crying... I can't fucking get a gripp on fucking reality...... I'm a bitch, a slut, a whore, ehatever else you wanna call me, put it in a comment. If you write it, it's probably true, so go ahead and say whatever you want about me in the sapce lebow, I know, I said i'm fucking ahppy go lucky weaboo techno shit, but to be honest... i feel like stabbing a knife in my skull, or heart, whichever way kills me quicker... goddammnit, now i'm being a whiny bitch about life. I'm stopping this journal because I'm just going to keep being a fucking bitch-ass hooker about everything.....